My Appeal

I’m long overdue for some kind of an update so here goes:



First, I appreciate the messages & questions—I don’t spend a lot of time scrolling or engaging on social media in long times cuz #aintnobodygottimeforthat but it means the world to be checked in on.



I still haven’t had a biopsy of this little liver spot yet. The reason is kinda simple, kinda complex but it boils down to two main things:



1. I decided after lots of feeling it out, & doing further research that I want to go with a laparoscopic surgeon locally who will do the biopsy & also do a microwave ablation (use high temps to kill the tissue) of “spot”. This will get rid of it to give me hopefully NED for months or if I’m lucky? Years.

2. I couldn’t schedule that due to hospital schedule until mid November.????‍????

3. I wanted time to spend on preparing my body for what is non invasive as far as surgeries go, but surgery none the less.



So…this means I’ve been free of the worry feeling for the last few weeks since making this decision.



I’ve been learning & adapting with therapeutic keto, (heads up my macros are INSANELY high so if you’re asking what I’m doing, it prob won’t be something you’d want to do long term in such ratios). I’m finally monitoring for ketosis to aim for a 3.0 or higher ketone range. See. Told you. Intense.



But mostly? I’ve just been happy to separate myself from the stress & focus on the living.



It’s a funky strange duality that never goes away—the period of intense worry & build up leading up to learning new information, the wait in between for something new, ignoring it until you have to face it; it never really changes. The circumstances do, but the feelings & coping methods? I feel like I’m getting the hang of those.



The other fun piece of “new” I’ve been focusing on is energetic & sound healing with reiki & sound baths. It’s SUCH a powerful experience—thanks @barefootblondegirlaz for the sessions!



Okay, so now on to the weekend of my 31st birthday—feeling so insanely grateful to be alive, feeling amazing, & humbled to feel so loved by so many people.



Please D O N A T E even $5 if you are able to aid in research for #ocularmelanoma for my birthday ????



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